You’re struggling. Anxiety brings overwhelm, stress, avoiding the things you most want to do. With depression there’s little motivation, lethargy, and if you are able to force yourself to do something you feel like you’ll end up regretting it. You want to be able to do “normal” things without struggling through it, without feeling like you don’t fit in. You want to have a great life, close friendships, a secure foundation with a loved one.