I've often said, "I wasn't supposed to live this life." The cards that I was dealt paved a way for me to hate myself, harm myself and choose relationships that only caused me pain. The traumas and abandonments I experienced supported the belief that I was unloveable, unfixable and deserved everything that left me feeling unworthy of a good life. Through my insatiable desire to understand human suffering, delve into personal therapy, countless self-help books and deep dives in psychology, I was able to make small, albeit consistent, shifts in my life. Impactful change isn't meant to be comfortable, but I trained myself to lean into this discomfort, understanding that healing will be unfamiliar and difficult. My desire for a different life was paramount for me. Growth is not linear, but possible for anyone with the gift of neuroplasticity. And although my life is not perfect, I am a world away from where I was. I believe you can be too.
"Nobody's free until everybody's free." F.L. Hamer